Ok... so tomorrow Makayla turns one month old. It is so crazy to think that she has been part of our lives for a month already. 17 years and 11 months to go... just kidding! We have come to love her so much and are thrilled to have her as part of our family. In the last month we have had only one week to be a family of three. My mom was here for the first week of her life and then we had one week with the three of us and now for the last two weeks Phil's mom and dad have been here. Then I am a single mom for two weeks while Phil starts training for his new job and then we are off to BC for two weeks to visit my family and enjoy my brothers wedding. Wow. So needless to say Makayla's life has been pretty full and busy already.
Well, the other day I was reading a blog (someone I don't know but discovered through a friend) and felt totally moved and inspired. Her name is Kelly and she was writing about the wonderful spritiual blessing of children. I totally agree that children can bring us in to the presence of God without us "spending time with God". It is challenging to find time to read the Bible and pray, but at times I find myself praying for Makayla (not that she would sleep more) that she would be someone who would love God with her whole heart, mind and soul and that she would be able to help others discover that relationship. I can't wait to watch her grow up and discover a love for God! I just pray too that God would give wisdom to Phil and I as we guide her through this life.
On a totally different note, these last two weeks with Phil's parents have been challenging for me. I have come to realize that I like to be in control of my life and my home and what takes place in and around it. Everyone has told me to let people help me while I can and to get rest and care for Makayla. Easier said than done! I need to be in control. So people doing my dishes, cleaning my floor, doing my laundry, etc. and doing it in not the "right" way drives me crazy. I then find after they have done things for me I need to go and redo it because it is not done my way. So, then am I really able to rest and enjoy having people take care of me... nope not at all. Am I crazy for feeling this way? I don't know. All I know is I have been having a really tough time having people care for me and my house. I also have a hard time with people looking after or holding my baby because they just don't do it right! Boy, I really have a long way to go and I have a lot of issues that I need to work out. Many a times I have had to bite my tongue for fear of saying something that may not go well with everyone around me! I am surviving and will become a better and stronger person at the end of all this. Sigh... I have been spending lots of time in prayer... especially for patience. Need I say more?
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